damn, i just saw the most amazing thing.
a girl,no name, no age
a girl who is seeing it all
newnot as the first time
but all over again
only this time she really sees it all
she doesn't just look right past
like so many of us do.
i knew that feeling,
that fleeting wonderment
that pure joy in all things once.
it was in the times,
just out of the hospital
after three months inside,
medicated
when i'd ride in the car and see the same view that was always there
but the green was so sharp i thought i'd bleed
and the sky was blue to cry for
and the dirt smelled so great when it was wet
that you wanted nothing more than to touch it.
the whole world was old and beautiful
but i was seeing,
hearing,
smelling,
tasting
and touching it
like i'd been living in a void before.
almost like it was all new to me.
reading her brought back that feeling for a second
the slightest reminder, really
i remember trembling with the need to write something down
just aching with the desire to touch things
and see people when i talked to them
i was excited to live
why is it that we forget this in the day to day?
i almost want to weep for us all
but i think i'll save my pity for me
maybe i'll box it up to give away another day
or i'll set it in a pretty glass frame so i never forget to see it
or maybe just offer it up to the winds
as it is pity and nothing to hold on to . . .