once upon a time
in a faraway land
i thought i wanted to be normalfunny, huh?
i thought i wanted to be half a couple with the 2.5 kids and a dog and cat
i thought i wanted a little light blue house with a tall brown fence
around a big backyard with a pool and swing set.
hhhmmm . . . 2.5 kids . . . .
i wonder, does that mean
you get 'almost pregnant' and stay that way?
or is it a time-share kid you spilt with a neighbor?
who carries the kid?
who fertilizes the egg?
what if one of you wanted to move?
i dunno.
i am in a quandary over this one.
i was talking and thinking aloud with my ex's fianc�e
while watching my two beloved nieces play with my daughter
and wondering at how much i can love them
while their mother sees them as a commodity.
they wake themselves every morning.
they play very quietly for a while and get dressed by them selves.
they got outside the house and play
until someone wakes and calls them to breakfast.
or lunch.
they stay outside, totally unsupervised, all day.
every day.
they are seven and six.
they are very physically beautiful little girls.
there is a lady in the park who acts as their mom.
she feeds them and has half their toys
she checks to make sure they have changed clothes.
she is the 'mommy'
how could a mother allow this?