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a sensory discussion

~ or ~

finish what you start

and this goes for both sexes

humans are very physical creatures
who need a certain amount of touching
and closeness with other humans.

we know this as fact, right?

in some cases it is seen in moments of extreme emotion
like friends holding each other at a funeral
a mother with her wounded child
the physical closeness and held hands of siblings challenged
the twined limbs of lovers . . .

it's very difficult to simply allow some one to touch you without touching back.
when someone takes your hand, most people will squeeze to acknowledge it
when someone hits you, most people hit back
simple enough, right?

this balance of give and take is, in my experience,
(and that of the many women and men i've talked to)
absent only in around 75% of the male population
and then it's situational
~ you give, they get, you swallow, they pass out ~
i think it's taught in high school gym class.

now, touch can comfort, disturb, heal, injure, soothe, distract, arouse and more.

i, personally, have found myself to avoid touching strangers
but have almost no sense of personal boundaries with friends

i love to be touched
and it is one of the only things that wipes away all thought
loosens the strings and hooks that tether me to this world and my own body
and can set me adrift in an ocean of pure emotion and feeling

i have only once been pushed out so far i could not speak or form coherent thought

it was most amazing
to drift away from everything
nothing but beautiful sensations
and a want so powerful i was sure i'd implode.

unfortunately, when one cannot think,
one cannot control one's body
or articulate need
and there is a razor thin fracture in this kind of pleasure
if you stay adrift too long it becomes exquisitely painful.

your every nerve is open and raw
and you ache
~ for what you don't know and can't say ~
but you're sure you'll simply die from it.

and two days later, you're still sure you'll die from it since you're stuck
in the jittery, aroused state and can't concentrate on anything.


twentyfour written 2001-07-18

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